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Fear of Not Being Good Enough

I've been having problems with a form of anxiety lately. Everything I do, everything I say, must be accurate. It is an excellent quality to have and one I've been working on for all my career. I'm proud of having a deep and proper understanding of the work I do.

The problem happens when you can't catch your breath. Everyone always expects you to come up with the best ideas and the best way to fix all the errors, and you can't let them down. If I make an error, they'll think I'm foolish, and they'll laugh at me!

I'm pretty sure there are unresolved conflicts in my past about not being good enough, but this is bullshit. I'm not going to let my mind go that way.

Who cares if you look foolish. It's ok if they think you're stupid. It's ok if you're not the best. It's ok if you fail. It's ok if you're embarrassed. It's ok if you say something wrong. It's ok not to know everything. It's ok if they let you go.

You're just one of the billion imperfect human beings, and you should not give a fuck about what everyone else thinks.

© 2022, Benjamin Houle